Last night at 9PM, we received a call from Robin Steele (for those who don't know or can't remember, she is the adoption lady from DS Association of Cincinnati) . There is a little girl who needs a home. We will call to get more info and to apply to be her parents when they open today. In the mean time, I am praying (a lot!) that IF this is His will, and IF this is Joy, we will be able to bring her home. (Finally!) I honestly don't want to get my hopes too high in fear that they will be crushed again (Christmas was hard for me - Joy wasn't here!)
As I said my morning prayers this AM after reading Mosiah 5, I realized that HIS will has become MY will. If someone had told me a year ago that I would be desperate to find a little one with DS, I would have thought they were nuts. Parenting a child with a special need was not on my radar screen for the future. After receiving that prompting in April of 2006, we have tried so hard to get ready and to bring her home. Now, 9 months later, I plead with the Lord to allow us to bring her home and to love her. His will has become my will. I realized this so powerfully this morning in my prayers. I wondered if I have allowed His will to become my will in other aspects of my life. Do I fast and plead for family scripture study or prayer or family home evening or any other aspect of creating a celestial family. I want to be able to have my heart sealed as His. Am I doing everything I can to do this?
"Therefore, I would that ye should be steadfast and immovable, always abounding in agood works, that Christ, the bLord God Omnipotent, may cseal you his, that you may be brought to heaven, that ye may have everlasting salvation and eternal life, through the wisdom, and power, and justice, and mercy of him who dcreated all things, in heaven and in earth, who is God above all. Amen." Mosiah 5:15