Hope and Joy

A few weeks ago I was visiting with a mom that has adopted several special needs children. She suggested that we get in contact with agencies in Texas and let them know about our desire to parent a baby with DS. That way if a situation presents itself, the agency will contact us directly. We sent out 50 letters to various agencies in our great state. And guess what, some agencies don't exist anymore, some are interested in us paying them and applying to adopt a "normal" child, and some are just foster care centers. There were a few that did what we wanted. They said that they would keep our information on file, just in case. But there was one that has contacted us back. They do have a potential placement. So we have emailed back and forth a couple of times and they have our home study. The birth mother is going to deliver toward the end of March. We'll see. I would love to be able to care for this baby - for her to be mine. We'll see. This waiting game is going to kill me!

Meanwhile, I have been thinking. What if this isn't Joy? Because I don't think this is Joy. Is that alright? Is there perhaps a grander plan here than just Joy? Might there be other little girls for our family? As our family has read the scriptures since we decided to adopt Joy, the word joy has popped out everywhere! We have discovered that hope is usually around joy, as is faith. The girls have teased us that we are going to adopt triplets: Faith, Hope, and Joy. We have had fun with it, but it was just fun. But now I am wondering. If this baby isn't Joy, could she be Hope? Time will tell. :)

Am I certifiably crazy yet? :)