Tuesday with Miss Lili Joy

Today I got to "Kangaroo Care" with Miss Lili Joy!
Kangaroo Care is skin to skin contact between mother and baby.
The baby can hear the mother's heartbeat and is warm and cozy under her shirt.
It's supposed to be like being in the womb.
It was heaven! :)

Miss Joy is up to 5 pounds, 13 ounces!
Please pray that she will learn to eat. She still likes to sleep and have the milk mysteriously appear in her tummy.
We can't bring her home till she can eat. So eat, baby, eat!

Love to you all!

That bumpy shape under my shirt is our babe!

Joy, Day 2

Joy is doing well. She gained a whole three grams over night. :)
We got to hold her for several hours today.
Jason was able to feed her the entire bottle (57 cc's for those interested) for her noon feeding! That was a first for her - she's never made it through the whole thing before.



If you need something to pray for: pray that Joy will be able to nipple all of her feeds.(translation to English - drink all of her milk from a bottle instead of having it put directly into her tummy through the tube) This is the only thing keeping that sweet girl in the hospital.

The hospital staff have been so kind. They are all so excited that she has a family!
We are thrilled it's us!!!

Now, onto the good stuff. 31 seconds of Joy awake!

Hello Joy!

We are in California!



We were able to go and see our little Joy this morning.

She was born June 1st, 2007 at 11:43pm.



Weight 5lb 3oz

Height 17 1/2 inches tall

Her full name will be:

Abagail Lili Joy Turpin

She is beautiful and very cute and I know that everyone wants to get on to the pictures and video!!!

The Mysterious workings of God

We have been attending the PRIDE classes for the Texas Foster/Adopt program.

At first this felt like the right thing to do and as we have been attending we have been feeling more and more uneasy about it.  We were just unsure as to what course of action we needed to take in order to find our baby.

As we just posted, our baby has found us! not through Foster/Adopt but through Robin Steele and the State of California.

On Wednesday morning I was at the dentist and arrived at home around lunchtime.  as I grabbed some lunch we received a phone call.  Robin was on the phone and told me about a baby born in California the past Friday. 

I knew then in my heart that this was indeed our Joy, and we had found her.  To my frustration Shelly was not at home and did not have a cell phone to call her.

I called our social worker and had all the Home Study sent to California, then confirmed that California had received the papers.  They showed the papers to the Birth Parents and they agreed that they wanted to select us as the adoptive parents.

We have gone from questioning what needs to be done and what steps are next to getting ready to pick up our Joy!

The workings of God are mysterious indeed.

Shouting and Jumping for Joy!

We found her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She was born on June 1st, 2007 in California.
Jason and I fly out to California tomorrow to see her.
We are hoping to be home sooner than later.
We are thrilled!

More later!!!!

Foster/Adopt

About a week ago we went to the Harris County CPS office to see the orientation meeting for the foster/adopt program. There is a great need for foster families and I do hope that we can provide some help in that capacity.

Our ultimate hope is that we can find our Joy in the foster/adopt program and finally be able to have our daughter.

First things first. We have to attend "PRIDE" classes to learn the foster/adopt system. This will be 6 or so 6 hour classes every Saturday. It will be worth it to find our baby.

Not This Time.

This month we have come the closest that we ever have to getting a baby.

On March 20th the baby we were waiting for was born.
She was born completely healthy and did not have Down Syndrome.

While this is fantastic for the baby it leaves us saddened that our time has not yet come to raise the little girl that our Heavenly Father has asked us to seek and make our own.

With much prayer and perseverance we will continue our search for Joy!

Closest we have ever been

We might have a baby before this month is out - wow! The situation I posted about in "Hope and Joy" is moving forward. If this little one does have Down syndrome (there are such things as false positives on prenatal screenings), she's ours! Wow! What an amazing gift! We have wanted this for so long, it almost doesn't seem possible that it could actually happen!

Yesterday I had to run get fingerprinted with the FBI. I now officially have a mug shot! (FYI - it's not very flattering! :) ) Jason goes on Friday for his fingerprinting and mug shot. On Friday our Social Worker has to come out and do an update. It's been six months since she was in our home. Is my house clean? No. Oh well. I still have 24 hours! :)

Here's hoping for Hope!

Hope and Joy

A few weeks ago I was visiting with a mom that has adopted several special needs children. She suggested that we get in contact with agencies in Texas and let them know about our desire to parent a baby with DS. That way if a situation presents itself, the agency will contact us directly. We sent out 50 letters to various agencies in our great state. And guess what, some agencies don't exist anymore, some are interested in us paying them and applying to adopt a "normal" child, and some are just foster care centers. There were a few that did what we wanted. They said that they would keep our information on file, just in case. But there was one that has contacted us back. They do have a potential placement. So we have emailed back and forth a couple of times and they have our home study. The birth mother is going to deliver toward the end of March. We'll see. I would love to be able to care for this baby - for her to be mine. We'll see. This waiting game is going to kill me!

Meanwhile, I have been thinking. What if this isn't Joy? Because I don't think this is Joy. Is that alright? Is there perhaps a grander plan here than just Joy? Might there be other little girls for our family? As our family has read the scriptures since we decided to adopt Joy, the word joy has popped out everywhere! We have discovered that hope is usually around joy, as is faith. The girls have teased us that we are going to adopt triplets: Faith, Hope, and Joy. We have had fun with it, but it was just fun. But now I am wondering. If this baby isn't Joy, could she be Hope? Time will tell. :)

Am I certifiably crazy yet? :)

Thy Will, My Will

Last night at 9PM, we received a call from Robin Steele (for those who don't know or can't remember, she is the adoption lady from DS Association of Cincinnati) . There is a little girl who needs a home. We will call to get more info and to apply to be her parents when they open today. In the mean time, I am praying (a lot!) that IF this is His will, and IF this is Joy, we will be able to bring her home. (Finally!) I honestly don't want to get my hopes too high in fear that they will be crushed again (Christmas was hard for me - Joy wasn't here!)

As I said my morning prayers this AM after reading Mosiah 5, I realized that HIS will has become MY will. If someone had told me a year ago that I would be desperate to find a little one with DS, I would have thought they were nuts. Parenting a child with a special need was not on my radar screen for the future. After receiving that prompting in April of 2006, we have tried so hard to get ready and to bring her home. Now, 9 months later, I plead with the Lord to allow us to bring her home and to love her. His will has become my will. I realized this so powerfully this morning in my prayers. I wondered if I have allowed His will to become my will in other aspects of my life. Do I fast and plead for family scripture study or prayer or family home evening or any other aspect of creating a celestial family. I want to be able to have my heart sealed as His. Am I doing everything I can to do this?

"Therefore, I would that ye should be steadfast and immovable, always abounding in ^agood works, that Christ, the ^bLord God Omnipotent, may ^cseal you his, that you may be brought to heaven, that ye may have everlasting salvation and eternal life, through the wisdom, and power, and justice, and mercy of him who ^dcreated all things, in heaven and in earth, who is God above all. Amen." Mosiah 5:15

Lest ye think otherwise

Lest ye think that we have been sitting at home twiddling our thumbs and waiting for a baby, I thought I would post that yes, we do receive information on babies with Down syndrome that need homes. These are the babies that we have learned about thus far.

The first baby we were told about died before she could be adopted. The second baby wasn’t meant to be ours. The third baby turned out to be a scam. The fourth baby isn’t due until March and while we have had our profile presented to them, they are still weighing all of their options. The fifth baby we found out about last week. We spent all weekend learning about AV Canals and talking with people and a neonatologist. By Monday the baby had been born and the mother had chosen to parent. I am glad for her. She would have missed out on a lot. And so we continue to wait.

I am so grateful that my Father has been with me through this whole process because I know that we will bring home a baby who is meant to be ours one day.

I also wanted to post that several someones have been very kind to us. My sisters have sent me all of their baby girl clothes. This kid is going to be very well dressed! My Mom gave me a crib. Another kind soul (who shall remain nameless) sent us some money to put toward Joy's adoption. Thank you everyone for your support! We really appreciate your love!

The Blessings of Waiting

I have been pondering the blessings of waiting. Those around me know that I moan and groan about this waiting, but there have been many wonderful blessings as well.

One of the amazing blessings is seeing the hand of the Divine in my life. I think it's great that Heavenly Father knows who I am - me, Shelly Turpin. He knows me! He provides me with direction for my life. This simply amazes me. I love it!
He provides me peace. There have been so many times that I have gone to Him with questions and concerns and He has blessed me with peace. Those that know me well know that is what I long for the most. Peace. Complete and utter contentment. It is possible in this crazy world, but it can only come from Him. I am grateful to know it.

Another of the blessings is the effects on my children. I imagine that Joy will impact our lives in ways we cannot comprehend. I assume that in the future I will talk about her effects on all of us. Today Becca had to write a small paragraph on trials. She doesn't know I am sharing this (forgive me, Becca).

Well, to my Mom, it's a trial to adopt Joy, but we all are going through with it. We have to wait and be patient so that we can get her. We have to have faith that we will have enough money and that we can take care of a person with Down syndrome. But we do and that is the best we can do for now.

I love her faith! :)

I'm Ready!

In my back-to-school blessing, I was blessed that when we were ready, Joy would come.
I am ready!
This week I got my bassinet, car seat and stroller. My sisters have sent me beautiful baby clothes. We are prepared and waiting.

I am not the most patient person. I have been grateful to Heavenly Father. He continues to bless me with peace and contentment - then I get up from my scripture study and I want her here now! :)
My new favorite scripture is Romans 15:4.
"...that we through ^dpatience and comfort of the ^escriptures might have ^fhope."
My scripture and prayer times are the only things that are keeping me sane right now.

Networking

Awhile back, we decided it might be a good idea to join the Down Syndrome Association of Houston. On our membership form, we said that we were future adoptive parents of a baby with Down syndrome. This week the new family coordinator called us. She wanted to put us in touch with another family who had recently adopted a little baby with DS. Brenda (the adoptive mom) and I emailed back and forth. She asked me if she could give our names and numbers to another lady. She called today. She works all over Texas. She is going to broadcast our name and interest to agencies that could help us. The internet is an amazing tool! People who we would never know will know about us and that we are seeking our Joy.

Jason reminded me today that Nathan, Jie, and (probably) Joy will join our family because of the internet. What a blessing!

Trying to Listen

There is a wonderful lady named Robin who works to help find homes for babies with Down syndrome. All of the work she does is free. She is simply dedicated to helping these babies. She has now called us about three different babies.

She called us yesterday about a little girl in Chicago. Neither Jason or I "felt" anything about this baby. Our Social Worker has advised us to make sure a baby is "our" baby before applying for her. So following her advice, we didn't send in our home study to the agency working with this little baby. Today, Robin called us back to find out why we didn't send in our homestudy. She was confused because the little girl fit the "profile" we had filled out. How do you say we didn't because we didn't receive a confirmation from the Spirit? I did the best I could.

I feel so many emotions right now. There is a baby in Chicago that needs a home. There is a bedroom upstairs that is empty. There are six people living in this house who keep asking, "When is Joy coming home?" I feel guilty. I feel uncertain. I feel like I'm trying to follow a shadow that I can't see. I am worried that Robin won't be so quick to call us about future babies because we don't follow through and really can't explain what we are looking for. So I prayed.

The words to a Primary song that Sammi is trying to learn came to my mind during my prayer as I tried to articulate my feelings.

Tell Me, Dear Lord

Tell me, Dear Lord, in thine own way, I pray,
What thou would'st have me say and do today.
Teach me to know and love thy will, O Lord;
Help me to understand thy loving word.

I would be guided by thy loving hand,
Would hear thy voice, obey thy blest command.
Each moment just to know that thou art near
Will strength impart and banish ev'ry fear.

I am grateful for a Heavenly Father who knows and loves me individually. Ultimately, it is Heavenly Father who will guide Joy to our home. I must trust in Him.

Dear Birthparent Letter and Photos

It's done. This emotionally process of pouring out your heart onto a piece of paper that will be shown to total strangers is done. This has been hard, but it's as good as I can get it. I am not an English major - please bear that in mind. :)

Can you imagine, though? Being faced with having to choose a family to raise your tiny baby? And all you have is a bunch of letters and pictures of smiling people that you don't know. How could you ever decide? I am hopeful that these are moments where the Holy Spirit steps in to gently prod and push so that each child is placed with the right family.

My thoughts tonight are with Joy and her birthparents. May God bless us all.


(Note:please forgive the formatting - it won't work on this blog tonight!)

Dear Friends,

We cannot imagine the heartache you must feel to hear that your baby has a diagnosis that was unexpected. Many times we have cried and our hearts have been filled with sorrow as we have imagined a doctor or nurse taking your hand and telling you that this child you have carried for nine months is going to have a very different future than the one you expected. But there is hope. God can turn anything to good. Our family feels inspired to raise and love a child with special needs. We are excited to welcome your sweet baby into our family. We will provide your baby with unconditional love and acceptance of who she is. We will see that her medical and educational needs are met.

Our family’s lives have been richly blessed by adoption. Shelly has two siblings who are adopted from China. We have learned that true love isn’t related to blood or skin color, it comes from the heart. Shelly’s adopted siblings are 28 and 30 years younger than she is, but we have so much fun together. As we tease, tickle, and giggle with them, we definitely act more like brothers and sisters than grownups and children. We all love them!

Your baby will grow up with four big sisters; we call them our “ladybugs.” Our girls are the center of our lives. They are all beautiful and smart (but we aren’t prejudiced at all J ). Their names are Becca, Sammi, Jessi, and Lizzy. Becca is our little mother hen who adores babies! She is 10 and very thoughtful. Sammi is 7 and loves to live. She is very active and adventuresome. Jessi is 5 and our cuddler. She loves people and just wants love and cuddles in return. Lizzy is 3 and our clown. One of her first sentences was “I funny.” She delights us all.

Jason (the Daddy) is a quiet person who has a funny sense of humor. He loves to play jokes on people and to laugh and enjoy life. He loves electronics. We are always teasing him about all his multitude of technological devices that he carries around.

Jason also has a love of learning all the details of history and science. He has a passion for the History Channel and Modern Marvels (a science show). He can be found many a late night, after everyone is fast asleep, up watching a show that is fascinating to him, but that none of the rest of us is interested in.

Jason also has a very high sense for fairness and rules. Do not plan on cheating or making up rules when playing a board game with Jason. Yes, he is one of those who will get out the rule book and read you the applicable rule.

Jason also is involved in the electoral process and the affairs of our nation. He routinely volunteers his time to help run elections as a poll worker and an election judge. He keeps abreast of the current affairs and supports local candidates through their campaigns.

As a youth, Jason performed internationally with a dancing and singing group. He was able to study the dance styles of jazz and ballet. He sang and choreographed routines for the group. Now he just shares those talents with his daughters.

Jason loves to tickle us silly! He adores coming home and all the kids running up to him saying “Daddy’s home!” The biggest thing Shelly loves about Jason is that he loves unconditionally. He is patient, supportive, and loves us all.

Shelly (the Mama) is a quieter person who likes to hang back, watch and learn before barging into something. She is very observant and has a really good memory. She is also a very curious person. She wants to know things – anything. Shelly loves to research and figure things out. She says she doesn’t know how she would live without the internet at her fingertips!

Shelly is what some people would call a home body. She loves to be home and enjoy the comforts there. She finds her inner strength from studying God’s word and from calm, peaceful music.

Shelly loves leaving the world behind by diving in and getting lost in a good book. She enjoys throwing herself into another realm whether it’s a Sherlock Holmes’s mystery or a science fantasy adventure. So if she’s not busy with the kids and normal life, then you’ll find her crawled up in her big, green library chair reading.

Shelly’s absolute weakness in this world is peanut M&M’s. They are the bane of her existence. She cannot eat just one. She’ll make herself sick on those. She tries very hard to avoid them, but she loves chocolate, chocolate and more chocolate. This spills over into brownies, cakes and chocolate chip cookies. Her perfect afternoon would be to eat chocolate with the coldest, iciest water and a good book – pure delight – and if Jason is reading on the seat next to her, then that’s pure heaven.

We met at church. Jason needed to see the play, ‘Oliver’ for an English project and Shelly was asked to go along. One thing led to another and two months later Shelly asked him to marry her. A little backward and fast, but he said yes, so it all worked out.

Our marriage works really well for us. Where she is weak, Jason is strong. Where he is weak, Shelly is strong. We compliment each other and we are glad we can hold on to each other through life’s craziness.

Early in our marriage, our precious son passed away. That first year after he died was as close to living in hell as we ever hope to come as we moved through the grieving process. We believe in life after death, but still we wondered what he was doing and if he was happy where he was. Knowing that we would never see him again in this life, our arms ached with emptiness and we felt that life was over and could never go on. We were grateful that we had each other to hold onto during that time. Neither of us has placed a child for adoption, but we imagine that you will similarly wonder what your sweet baby is doing and if she is happy. We invite you to be honest with us and let us know if you would like to visit with our family or what kind of contact you would like with our family. We want you to have the reassurances that you will need that your baby is loved by her new family.

Please know that your baby is wanted, loved deeply, and being prayed for by a Mom and Dad and four sisters who can’t wait to meet her and smother her with love and kisses.

With much love,
Shelly and Jason

Surprise!

Our Social Worker called this morning, can I come over this afternoon to do your home visit? What?!?!? Of course you can.
So we cleaned all day :). My Mom came over and helped me mop and to be an extra set of eyes.

Our Social Worker showed up and Sammi took charge. Sammi read her a poem, dressed up in a chicken costume, and showed her every room in the house - even the linen closet which I was hoping she wouldn't see. :)

The good news is that we passed. We are done. Now the hard part starts, we have to find Joy!

Home Visit

Our white glove home inspection was scheduled for tomorrow. We have been frantically running around moving cleaning products from under sinks, hiding computer cords, generally de-cluttering, and stressing big time. Our yard looks great! Our kids's rooms look not so great - but I still had until 4 PM tomorrow - her scheduled appointment time.
BUT...
A beautiful baby was born. (Not ours) Our social worker has to go down and do the placement. I am glad for the adoptive couple - what a wonderful day. I am sad for the birth mother - I hope that she can find peace. And I am breathing again because my home visit has been postponed until Wednesday. Yeah! 2 more days to clean. This house is going to look great (I hope!). Can I move into a beautiful, brand new house in that time? :) Jason said that we should give our social worker his parent's address - it would be magazine perfect! (He's kidding!)

It looks like the little girl that we were called about has probably been placed. Truthfully, I am OK with that. I know that Heavenly Father has a child in store for our family. I know she is precious and wonderful and will be a great blessing to our family. Knowing that, I want to make sure that we get the right baby for our family. We want Joy!

Two days ago, I was stressing (anyone noticing a pattern here) and I decided to read my patriarchal blessing. There is a line that talks about my pre-mortal life. It says that I shouted with joy. It's talking about the council in heaven and the plan of salvation being made known to us, but I felt a little warm, tingly feeling as I read it and realized that I probably did indeed shout with Joy in the heavens before this life. We probably knew each other very well. I can't wait to know her here.

Interviews -- Part 2

My interview was second. Julie, our Social Worker, wanted to get to know us more than what is on paper. I was so nervous - I was afraid I was going to throw up everywhere! :)

We survived. We passed the test. She said that she asks the husband and wife the same questions and compares the answers. Our answers matched! Yeah!

We were contacted on Wednesday about a little baby girl born on Monday the 14th, but our homestudy wasn't completed. We don't know whether or not she has been matched with a family yet. Julie is willing to work with us to get our home study finished quickly. She is coming out on Monday to do our home inspection. Of course, I am nervous about that as well. The saga continues....

Interviews -- Part 1

Ok,

First interview was mine while Shelly waited.

She asked about my childhood and growing up, about my family and what I did as a child, high school, mission, college, and being married. They wanted to know how I feel about our marriage and how strong it is. I don't know that I have ever talked that much about myself. ( I just don't like talking about me.)

It took nearly an hour for my interview and she also wanted to know all about why we decided to adopt and how we feel about it.

I have been very nervous about doing this interview and have been wanting to just get it done and past so we can move on to getting our Joy home.